Monday, December 10, 2012

Merapu Kerapu


Entahlah (1)~
It seems that I do need someone to talk to
Better I stay in my room,study lagi better
Study-study cam tak de life je
How is it my dad able to do it
Being able to study until PHD level
Waking up early every day(saturday n sunday pun bgn awal)
It seems that i also started to have a habit of waking up early in the morning(baru sekali)
He always prioritize on work.
Work hard and never stop until it is done
Rasanye I cam dah start following my father foot steps

Entahlah (2)~
Feelings (love,sad,happy)
Something that seems hard to control
We all have feelings
What makes us different is how we react to it

Steps to react to a feeling
1.Think
2.Resistance
3.Let time do the work

Saya Rindu Miss A (rasanye ada org senyum baca bnd ne kot) :)

My job is now to finish my degree
After that cari kerja / further studies
After that cari rumah kat Kedah
After that cari bini Kedah atau buat Miss A jadi bini la :D
hahaha

Entahlah (3)~
In life we will be young twice
in dunia and also the after life
There is still life after this dunia
We tend to chase all which is temporary
without a taught of the after life(which is forever tau)

Setiap yang hidup akan mati
Tiada manusia yang akan kekal selamanya

ps: Oh Myviku,kesian kat kau tak de orang nak bawa kau jalan2. 






Monday, November 5, 2012

To Message or not to Message...

To Message or not to message,
that's the question.

Serdang area seems to be raining non stop this days and seemingly people easily get sick with uncertain weather. I actually am okay with this kind of weather.Gloomy,light rain and without even a slight ray of sun.Let's face it I think all this while my life is best reflected by this uncertain gloomy weather. To message or not to. I want to but There is something that is holding me back from doing so. I think that disturbance that keep on holding me back is the fear of her not replying back.My brain will then go into overdrive thinking of all the possibilities why a message is not replied back (easily fooled brain):

  1. Marah ke kat I sampai tak mau reply ne?
  2. Tengah tido ke mamat/minah ne?
  3. Aku ne cam stalker ke duk nak message ngan dia je?
  4. Aku sayang kat dia ke?
  5. Dah-dah la tu..asyik berfikir entah kemana ntah..
Terpengaruh blog "semua tentang kehidupan" nak start cite sal hujan gak:)

To be honest, I hid my phone in a closet or unreachable place in order to restrain myself from sending message to her. I don't want to disturb her but i want to have a conversation with her. Hope she is okay.I miss talking to her. If allowed I want to talk to her everyday sampai berbuih mulut(ye la tu ada chance nak cakap ngan dia terus gubra lak).

p/s: lembon tu ape?bunyi cam kuih je.

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Bad habits that i like to change


  1. Cursing at something that makes me mad.
  2. Getting super anxious about every little new things to the extend of being out of control
  3. Feeling 'Gubra' when getting near to someone special
  4. 'Fikiran Ke laut' when someone is talking to me
  5. Hu ha-ing* about little things that is super simple
  6. Criticize about others without even knowing the situation
  7. Very easily  jealous .haha (macam perempuan)
  8.  Blaming others without realizing my mistakes
  9. Kurang ajar dan mesti diajar cukup-cukup
  10. Telling Lies (ne yang patutnye top priority)

Hu ha-ing* : getting excited super-super gile-gile tahap 10

p/s : refelecting myself..ada lagi ne..

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

How I Met Your Mother(Season 7-ep16)

Narration at the end of the episode:

Kids,
Sometimes you realize, 
the journey that you have been taking, 
has reached its final stop,

So the question becomes:

Where do you go next?

p/s: the same question that i asked myself everyday

icing of a cake

The feeling of guilt is something hard for some to accept especially when you did something to hurt that special someone without even realizing about it. When I care so much of her, It seems to make her feel annoyed. I do not know how to explain the situation.Maybe I try so hard to impress her. Why i want to know about her so much? a question that really is a bump inside my brain right now. Is it the long past love that still recite in this old heart or the hope of being back together.

She is more than something. Maybe I can't be with her but  i can hope for something at least to keep me waking up and doing my daily routine. There was once a time, that I always have an image of us together in a house near a paddy field with her ideal car(Suzuki Swift) and also my own Myvi parked in front of the house. Maybe someday in the future this image that recite in my mind will be a real situation hopefully in Kedah.( Kedah memang best pengakuan orang Selangor)

Kalau rumah macam ne nk parking kete kat mane?

All i know is that i want her to be safe. Being too in love with a person really have it's consequences. The effect carries on throughout your life. Every little things that reminds the person that we use to be is really an icing for a cake that stays as an illusion in our head. The moral of the story, when you found a person that you love and you decided to be with her for the rest of your life marry her, get some agreement  that will keep the relationship strong.(Nikah terus la)

Kalau dapat kerja kat Kedah.This heart will be super gembira.

p/s :I am sorry for what that i have done to hurt your feelings.Miss A please if anything, anything at all you like me to help just tell me about it. Take care~

Friday, October 12, 2012

John Mayer-half of my heart

"Half Of My Heart"
I was born in the arms of imaginary friends
free to roam, made a home out of everywhere I've been
then you come crashing in, like the realest thing
trying my best to understand all that your love can bring

oh half of my heart's got a grip on the situation
half of my heart takes time
half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
that I can't keep loving you (can't keep loving you)
oh, with half of my heart

I was made to believe i'd never love somebody else
I made a plan, stay the man who can only love himself
lonely was the song I sang, 'til the day you came
Showing me another way and all that my love can bring

oh half of my heart's got a grip on the situation
half of my heart takes time
half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
that I can't keep loving you (can't keep loving you)
oh, with half of my heart
with half of my heart

your faith is strong
but I can only fall short for so long
Down the road, later on
you will hate that I never gave more to you than half of my heart
but I can't stop loving you
I can't stop loving you [x3]
but I can't stop loving you with half of my...

half of my heart
half of my heart

half of my heart's got a real good imagination
half of my heart's got you
half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
that half of my heart won't do

half of my heart is a shotgun wedding to a bride with a paper ring
And half of my heart is the part of a man who's never truly loved anything

half of my heart [x6]


p/s:The lyrics seems to really signify my feeling towards this one person.

Saturday, September 29, 2012

A conversation with my little heart

Me: Hello there my little pumping friend.How's your life?you seems a little down this days.

Little heart: Yeah,i am feeling a bit down.It actually feels like as if i am on a roller coaster ride. Some days i feel like i'm at the top of the world,other days i  feel super down like i want to bury myself deep down the earth. It is been so long that i feel down, but no one actually knows about my condition.

Me: I'm sorry my little heart, I'm the one that hides you, i'm the one that ignores you and i'm the one that always  pretend as if nothing had happen.I have to do what is best for me so that i can be part of the society and keep on living.

Little heart: I really like her but i can't take the fact that i will never have a chance to be with her.She already had someone that she will be getting along with.

Me: We should be thankful that she is still willing to be our friend.after all those bad things that I did to her.It is very kind of her.

Little heart: hahaha.I don't know what else to say.We sure love her that much yea.

Me: We sure do.come let me treat you teh tarik at the mamak as an appreciation for always being there for me.

Little heart: The thing is that i don't have a mouth.so how in the world can i drink teh tarik.haha

Me: ...




p/s:  If hearts can talk...

Monday, September 24, 2012

Weekday boost#3


I was made to believe i'll never love somebody else

Made a plan,stay the man,who could only love himself

lonely was the song i sang,till the day you came

(John Mayer-Half of My Heart)

p/s:John Mayer my all time favorite singer.I like his song which is kind of soothing to the ear. 

Sunday, September 23, 2012

It is very super Complicated

There is a difference between being a friend and also a special someone.You can not be both because the tendency of a person  to tip to one side of either into the friend zone or the special someone zone is there.Actually there is a case when a person keep himself in the friend zone and deep inside of him he holds a hope that someday he will be in the special someone zone.Although there is not a single chance of hope that he will be on the special someone zone.Feeling and thought are kept inside seal in a safe with no way to open it.Being able to be close to her is like a child being able to do what he really wants too.I want to be with her for the rest of my life,but i know it will never happen so i settle my self with every little meeting with her and each meeting i treat it as the last time of being with her.I am still on the fence of friend and special someone zone.I hope one day the fence will fall and both side of the zone will be met.I hope that she still has a thing with me and that She still loves me.HAHA.Berangan la kau man.

Oh how i hope that ill be on the other side...

This is part of the feeling express in little words which much more can be written.I really hope that someday she will be part of me.haha.rasenye cam dah terbang merentas da sekarang ne.

p/s:Sorry next time we will go eat nasi rather than subway yang might be still hungry right now.kan miss A kan?atoi2..

Saturday, September 15, 2012

Something wrong somewhere ne??#2

Seorang Lelaki berjalan ke arah seorang perempuan yang comel kiut miut yang sedang duduk menunggu lecterur masuk kelas.Niat lelaki itu akan diketahui apabila anda habis membaca.

L(boy):Why your pipi so tembab like a pau that i just want to eat?haha(gelak evil)

P(gurl):hey u.Biaq p la pipi i tembab.it's not yours you know..(buat muke ada mau cari gaduh)

L:If I ask you for your hand in marriage then the pipi is mine la kan?

P:...(bunyi cengkerek)

L:hehe..(berjalan balik ke tempat duduk asal dia)

At last the lecterur came into the class

Lecterur:Today we will have no class.You can now confess your love towards the parents of the girl that you love and ask the wali for the hand and marriage.

Students:yeah!!!

Student1:Doctor,I am not ready for marriage.I think i am still young.

Lecterur:Hadith Sahih Bukhari, Volume 7, Book 62, Number 4, Narrated 'Abdullah
We were with the Prophet while we were young and had no wealth whatever. So Allah's Apostle said, "O young people! Whoever among you can marry, should marry, because it helps him lower his gaze and guard his modesty (i.e. his private parts from committing illegal sexual intercourse etc.), and whoever is not able to marry, should fast, as fasting diminishes his sexual power."
 
The boy walks towards the girl and ask her whether he can meet her parents.
 
 
-THE END-
 
 
p/s:I actually want to write about young marriage.I think I did part of it and to be honest the story is super merapu but still the Hadith should be taken as a lesson to us as a Muslim:)


Friday, September 14, 2012

Info Session:Wind Energy


Could wind power ever meet the world’s energy needs?


 
Horns Rev 2, the world’s largest wind farm, 30 km (19 miles) off the west coast of Denmark (Reuters).
At the moment, wind power supplies about 4.1 percent of electric power in the United States. Still a bit player. Yet there’s a whole lot of untapped wind left in the world. Wind whipping through the Great Plains. Wind gusting off the shores. Wind circulating high up in the sky. So what would happen if we tried to harvest all of that wind?


We’d have enough energy to power the world. At least in theory. A new study published this week in Nature Climate Change finds that there’s enough wind potential both on the Earth’s surface and up in the atmosphere to power human civilization 100 times over. Right now, humans use about 18 terawatts of power worldwide. And, technically, the study found, we could extract about 400 terawatts of wind power from the Earth’s surface and 1,800 terawatts of power from the upper atmosphere.

This isn’t what’s likely — just what’s possible. As Kate Marvel, a researcher at Lawrence Livermore National Laboratory, explains, this paper mainly looks at wind power’s maximum potential. “We were looking at the geophysical limits of what the Earth could handle,” Marvel says. “We didn’t necessarily restrict our study to what was feasible.” (Marvel co-authored the study with Ken Caldeira and Ben Kravitz of the Carnegie Institution for Science.)

Even the most optimistic near-term projections for wind power, however, tend to be more restrained. In 2008, the U.S. Department of Energy released a comprehensive report estimating that wind power could provide, at most, 20 percent of U.S. electricity by 2030. And for that to happen, the cost of wind power would have to keep plunging, the number of turbines built would have to steadily increase by about 14 percent each year, and utilities would have to build new transmission lines to accommodate the extra energy.

What’s more, electric-grid operators would have to figure out how to juggle a power source that isn’t quite as reliable as the coal and gas plants of old. That’s not an impossible task. As Stanford’s Christina Archer and Mark Jacobson showed in a 2007 modeling study of the United States, the wind is always blowing somewhere in the country, which means that if enough wind farms are linked together, they can provide lots of steady baseload power. But building that infrastructure can be difficult — Germany is currently struggling to upgrade its grid to accommodate a surge of new wind and solar farms.

Rather than get bogged down in these logistical details, however, the new Nature Climate Change paper set its sights far higher. For one, it doesn’t just look at wind potential near the Earth’s surface, as past studies have done. The study also asks how much wind energy could be extracted from higher altitudes. Various companies are now working on designs for wind turbines that can float high in the air, on kites or balloons. Since the wind is steadier and stronger high up in the atmosphere, that’s a tantalizing resource — if the technology could work.

True, humans would eventually run into a physical limit on how much wind energy could be harnessed. Wind turbines work by creating resistance or drag, slowing the wind’s momentum. Put up enough turbines, and the wind will slow down too much. What’s more, the change in global circulation could, in theory, muck with the climate. (Previous modeling studies, including one by David Keith in 2004, had raised the possibility that large-scale wind harvesting might alter global rainfall patterns.)

Yet the Nature Climate Change study suggests that neither of these things will be a problem for a long, long time. Humans could sustainably extract up to 2,200 terawatts of power from surface and atmospheric winds before bumping into physical limits. That’s 100 times as much power as the world uses today. What’s more, if the world ever harnessed that much wind, the temperature of the Earth would shift by only about 0.1°C and precipitation would shift by less than 1 percent. “It’s not a big deal, basically,” says Marvel.

Marvel says the next step for this sort of research will be to restrict the analysis to wind-turbine locations that are technically feasible. For now, however, it’s safe to say that there’s enough wind potential to meet the world’s demand many times over, at least in the abstract. “[I]t seems that the future of wind energy,” the study concludes, “will be determined by economic, political and technical constraints, rather than global geophysical limits.”

Copied from: http://www.washingtonpost.com/blogs/ezra-klein/wp/2012/09/10/is-there-enough-wind-energy-to-meet-the-worlds-needs/

p/s:I read the article without entirely understanding it.But still la i get a thing or two about it and FYI this is a copied article tau.

Sunday, September 9, 2012

Weekday Boost#2

Here, it's clear that I'm not getting better

When I fall down you put me back together

I'm alone in my room, I don't know what to do

When I fall down you put me back together

(Weezer-Put Me Back Together)

Friday, September 7, 2012

A Hybrid Family

Daddy is a Malay from Terengganu and Mama is a Melanau from Sarawak.My family as most of Malaysian nowdays are Rojak.To be honest,actually i am a little bit confuse with my family.My family is like a mix of a bit of Melanau which sometimes seems very close to Chinese and also mostly of the Malay lifestyle.We have a round table in the kitchen(like most chinese house have kot),Mama sometimes use chopsticks to cook,I sometimes use chopstick to eat tapi usually i use hand la,I know a bit of Melanau(Mama is fluent in Melanau,a bit of Iban,a bit of Hokkien).The mix of the Melanaunese can be seen in my family which are surrounded by Malay society(not really)there are some mix marriage around Bangi(Malay+American,Malay+Chinese).My family is one of those mix marriage family in Bangi or i like to call a hybrid family(hybrid:electricity+gas).A thing or two about hybrid family:

  1. You will sometimes confuse people with your looks:I have this Melanau sort of Chinese looks with a bit of malay skin tone and also hidung daddy(like my mom said).Maybe some will assume me as Chinese or even Korean(mane dtg ntah:jiwa perasan) but as stated in my IC i am a Malay and also a Muslim.
  2. You will see some mixing of culture in everyday life:in my case,my family have Melanau culture mix with Malay Culture.Which sometimes is weird but special.Food cooked by Mama has a bit of the Chinese Style to it.
  3. This is the thing that i am worried about the most,Kahwin(topic ne lagi;atoi2) How am i going to talk to my parents about merisik,bertunang and all that stuff.My dad married my mom without any all of the stuff.It might be very awkward considering he never gone through those stuff before.Furthermore,My dad also seems not really intersted in talking about marriage,realtionship and all of the lovey dovey stuff.
Prius a hybrid car
A hybrid family is very intersting and special.The important thing in any family is the religion,the application of it in everyday life.This what makes a happy and strong relationship between families.

p/s:No matter who you are,what you are,There is always a way if you have the will

Monday, September 3, 2012

A message in a phone

In the name of Allah; The Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.

Six more days until the start of my third year in UPM.Unconsciously time move like a bullet train with no stops and In the blink of an eye i am a third year student of environmental studies.I think i learn a lot more about life if compared to environment during my university life.Aiyoo Environment is also part of life la.I also fell in love for the first time in my U life and let me tell you that It was really something new for me.Unfortunately,It does not last that long and the girl that i am in love with is now my best friend.Lets call her Miss A.

Last night i received a message from Miss A from my phone saying that she really loves to read my blog.It's been a while since i get a message from her.The first time that i read the message i feel so happy,no words can describe it.I even reply to her message three times at 1 in the morning because i was super excited.Actually I really miss having a conversation with her.I do not know how to describe the feeling.It is like a mixture of happiness(because I know she is there for me as a friend) and geram-ness(because I know I can not be with her).I just want to build a time machine and go back to the time before she is engaged.Next i will ask her parents directly for whether i can ask for her hand in marriage.(Kesan tengok cerita Back to the future,like there is away to manipulate time)haha.Miss A i just want you to know that i love receiving your message and i would like to ask whether you would like to go bowling ke?tgk cite the possesion ke? tgk Sadako 3D ke?.haha.(merapu2)

An old phone


You know you can't live on hope alone,but without it life is not worth living.

Thursday, August 30, 2012

something wrong somewhere ne??

This post might have a different impact on different readers.The outcome from the reading of this post might be..i myself don't how it will turn out..haha.Thank You for reading.Here we go~

Two friends in a room.one trying to calm down the other who can not face the reality that the one that he once love are going to be married with another person:

PEMUJUK:Aish.aku tau persaan sedih ang punya la bergelora bak ombak kat laut Cina Selatan masa Monsoon Cup.Nape la ang p ada perasaan kat dia lagi.dah-dah la tu dia tu akan jadi bini orang.atohai-atohai.

EMO GUY:Aku tak boleh control feeling kalo bab-bab cinta ne.Especially ngan dia tu.Kalo aku tau ada orang nak g tunang dia.Aku g rumah dia masa kat tempat dia hari tu cakap perasaan aku yang sebenar kat family dia.Pastu Tunang ngan dia baru best.

PEMUJUK:Tak guna menyesal bak kata orang puteh there's no use crying over a split milk.Betul la Islam suruh approch family dulu kalo berkenan kat seseorang.Ikat Kontrak yang sah yang diredhai Allah.Couple-couple,monkey-monkey love ne semua ibarat kontrak tak sah tahu tak?

EMO GUY:Kau ne nak pujuk aku ka?atau nak bagi aku lagi sedih ne..huhu

PEMUJUK:Aku pun tak tahu.Ang member aku,at least aku try la nak be there for you la kan.

EMO GUY:Selalunye bila aku teringat kat dia aku kat buat benda pelik-pelik nak alih perhatian aku cam buat tarian Oppa Gangnam Style, buat tarian KARA-Mister yang bontot goyang2 tu,Tengok Family outing,Layan lagu Big Bang,Gelakan parody raya perempuan yang pakai lagu Big Bang,Tengok dinding,deactivate FB pastu activate balik,membayangkan diri main air guitar dan macam-macam lagi la.

PEMUJUK:Ang ne mesti ada something wrong somewhere ne..(berjalan perlahan2 kebelakang gaya2 moonwalk dan meninggalkan bilik)

-TAMAT-

p/s:This story is super duper merapu.






Saturday, August 25, 2012

Topics during an Open House

Open house is a very rare tradition that can only be seen during the festive season in Malaysia(i herd that the government are going to have tax exemption for those who are having an open house this idea sounds very stupid la)the idea is to open your house or welcome to any visitors to your house.Mountain of food are the norm during the occasion.Another thing about an open house if you go to any of your former high school mate open house, you will eventually bump with most of your friends from school days.It seems to be like a little mini reunion where conversation will start by each and every one of us.Actually i am not much of a talker because when i talk it seems i will have a little awkward moment and also i am very passive person.What are the topics of conversation during my last open house:

  1. U-life,what course are you taking,How is life in a foreign country.Most of my batch from my school are doing engineering and also some or two pursuing medic.I think i am the only one from my school who are pursuing my study in environmental sciences.It seems to me maybe i should have consider in taking all of the critical courses(medic,engineering)but i do enjoy my environmental course very much.I will try my best to go with the flow and succeed in my field.
  2. Food,this topic usually come up during eating.The food is sedap la.You have to try this.Can not la takut nek body weight la.I like to eat especially a new dish that i have not tried before.Actually eating at an open house help me to get away from having a conversation.(anti-social alert)
  3. The way you look.How much have you change.haha.Some of my friends told me i do look different during my school days.Even to the extend of comparing me with Korean Artist tau.haha.(Super perasan alert)
  4. Marriage.He is going to be married.She is going to be married.I actually have a stereotype that if you are studying in the middle east country,you will eventually get married at a very young age.(stereotype alert).There are even who are married at my age that are already having a baby.This topic really makes me wonder,when will i be matured enough to get married.Do i have the qualification  to be a husband and a dad.Agama u k dah ka? to raise a family.haha.pening2.later la benda kahwin2 ne.(avoiding a topic alert!!)
Open house should actually welcome any person to a house.I think it will be even better if you invite children from an orphanage to an open house.This can be a sort of charity and getting to know others occasion.

p/s:I Don't know what to write la under here...

Sunday, August 19, 2012

Raya at Uncle Najib's house

This is Uncle Najib

It is the 1st day of Syawal,Uncle Najib and his cabinets decided to have an open house at his home.He welcome many people from far and near to that event.Uncle Najib house is so big it is like a castle with a super huge park,a golf course and the best part is his house is opposite a lake.There were many people during the open house.It was like a sea of people with the scorching weather.Sounds like a day at a beach right?It is like a day at a beach but without the ocean and you were in a Baju Melayu which is super panas dowh.Things that happen during Uncle Najib's open house:

A picture at Uncle Najib's golf course
  1. I met Dr Ferdius(my lecturer in UPM) and her family which were about to leave the open house.I saw them after Ali(my brother) and I escape from the queue to meet Uncle Najib in his house.The queue was super duper tahap gaban lompat-lompat sampai ke bulan(a super hyperbolic expression) crowded.Imagine being surrounded by people without little space to move and when the queue move forward we have to walk little by little like penguin.Actually the experience is really rare to me.Looking at the bright side,at least i have the opportunity to be in a big crowd although i did not get a chance to see Uncle Najib Yet.
  2.  I saw many wastage of food.I think this is very common especially during big occasion like this but people should be more cautious about this and think about the amount of food that you take, think before you eat.Another thing is that the usage of polystyrene which i think is not very environmental friendly.Later i will talk to Uncle Douglas Unggah(Minister for Natural Resources and Environment)about implementing a more environmental friendly set of disposable plate throughout Malaysia.Although the effect can not be seen today it will really have an impact to the future generation.Haris Hilman you are a very good environmental student.hoho.
  3. Perut sudah buncit because i think i eat banyak kot but still i am hungry.
  4. During our walk to leave Uncle Najib's house we got the chance to see him driving a buggy with Uncle Mahathir besides him.I don't know la,at first i feel very excited but after seeing him what is there to be excited about he is just a normal human being who leads Malaysia je.
p/s: SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR BATIN...




Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Shopping with girls

Most men do not like to be drag around a shopping mall,having to follow girls to watch they shop for girl stuff,having to carry their bag is just nightmare to them.Personally I just love to shop but i do not like to buy things, It seems that when i buy things i will be torn apart whether the things that i am going to buy is useful or not and i will end up not buying it.haha.Actually I shop because of the experience.Being able to get along especially with girls is very new to me considering i am the eldest of three brothers in my family(my mom is the only girl in my family)You will actually learn a lot from shopping with girls.

This are some of the things that I learn from shopping with girls :

  1. First thing that i notice when i go out with girls,is that shopping is just like a fun fair for them.The feeling of being able to go to a shopping mall which is full of shoes is just heaven.I think the display in the shopping mall is the main reason for  the attraction(even i sometimes loves to see variety of shoes which are nicely arranged in a shop). The display which is nicely set really attract people.Maybe this is part of the marketing strategy.We can see how a shop set up a place in order to attract customers.I think for those who are in marketing business a shopping trip with girls will help them in their future career.
  2. You will learn how to give comments.Sometimes a girl will ask you your opinion about something that she picks from a shop.Without realizing, we are actually appointed as a judge.Ever seen those reality singing show with three judges in front of them?Now you are actually in the judges seat.Is like a one in a life time experience,it is not like everyday that you get a chance to be a judge.In this situation it is best to be neutral or may be a slight bit humorous.
  3. There are some girls who does not like to shop.They prefer to go to the arcade,bowling alley and watch movies.The stereotype that girls love to shop only apply to certain of them, that is why it is called a stereotype.
  4. Girls shoes are very interesting.They come up in many different shape and style.I even develop an interest in girls shoes after going out with some of my friends.haha.cam weird je kan.
Ballet flats kan nama kasut ne?i love seeing girls that wear this kind of shoes.gile stalker aq ne.
This post is based on my personal experience.It does not refer to all girls in the world.One thing that i really like to say is enjoy the little things in life.Shopping with girls whether she is your friend,your spouse,siblings or even your mom is just part of little wonder that makes life special.This little things should be treasure.Life is short,you never know how long you will live.

p/s:Nak dekat buka sem dah ne..yeah!!!..:D

Sunday, August 12, 2012

Weekday boost


And if I make it through today
Will tomorrow be the same
Am I just running in place
And if I stumble and I fall
Should I get up and carry on
Will it all just be the same



Good Charlotte-The Young & The Hopeless



Almost Raya la!

I think this year raya might be a bit different.Usually my family will go balik kampung to Terengganu but it seems that due to SPM trial we may be having our raya in Bangi (to be exact our 2nd time celebrating raya in Bangi).Honestly,I prefer to celebrate raya in Bangi because I was brought up here in Bangi and I consider Bangi as my hometown.Still It will be lovely to celebrate raya with all of my relatives in Terengganu.

What to expect in this year raya:
  1. Mama is not going to bake any kuih raya because she will be tired after making the kuih and it seems easier to just buy kuih raya at the shop.There are no girls in my family except my mom, maybe mama have no one she can spend time talking and doing girl stuff.(Don't worry mama someday i will find a wife that you can talk girl stuff with and both of you can bake together).Though i love to watch people bake,i really do not know how to bake.If given a chance i really like to learn how to bake. 
  2. New Baju raya after 10 years of the same old baju melayu Johor.This year I decided it is time for me to try the cekak musang one(nak rasa cam pengantin la katakan).Actually my family are not really into buying new baju raya every year.If the shirt still fit,no need to buy a new one, that is our motto for every raya.This cekak musang will last another 10 years in my closet or maybe even longer.Thank you Daddy for the cekak musang.
  3. Kahwin.haha.Just kidding.All of my brothers seems to get older by the year,still we behave like little children.I also just love behaving like a child but still i ada hati nak kahwin.haha.The bad news is if you kahwin you will not get duit raya instead you will be giving duit raya to others.I think i have to think about this kahwin stuff later la kot.
I actually do not mind how my raya is,how much duit raya i get,adakah miss A akan buat kuih with my mom someday(this i do mind and i really hope it comes true one day,merapu suadah).For me the most important thing in Raya is having families together.I think I will feel a bit weird celebrating raya without any of my close siblings(especially the anok2 Mak Su).

To my future wife this is my favorite kuih(kuih keria)
p/s:Aiyoo..this post is really rojak one..Macam la your future wife baca blog ne..tak yah nak mimpi la manXD

Friday, August 10, 2012

Mr.Brightside?

So much for the title Mr. Brightside, ironically my blog seems to focus on the problem of things rather than the bright side of a problem.Actually the name of my blog came from a song by a band named The Killers called Mr. Brightside.I actually loved the song i played it many times and also the name seems very catchy.I even use Brightside as my last name in my Facebook name.There is nothing really behind the name of my blog, It is just something that i find interesting and the name really makes me wonder.

Is there such a thing as a 'Mr Brightside'?

If you read the name there will come a thought the person must be a super positive person and he will always find a silver lining to a stormy cloud.In reality,we tend to be attracted to one person problem rather than their good qualities.The negative stuff is easier to remember than the positive stuff.I think we should get a glance of the problem,if there is a solution execute it gradually.Trouble is a friend sounds like the title of a song and i also like to add that negative thought is also a friend.Friends are not perfect,nobody is perfect but each and every one of us has a 'Mr. Brightside' in ourselves.Together as friends(trouble and negative thougths) we can help each other to overcome every obstacle(this part seems to have a very deep meaning).If I am not mistaken,Islam also teaches us to always have a positive thought towards a person regardless of their background


The Killers
p/s:I think a story should be nice in this blog.(Nape la asyik teringat kat org Kedah tu T0T)

Wednesday, August 8, 2012

Kedah Darul Aman

During my placement test in British Council,There was an essay question which ask us to write about a place that we once visited and the duration was only 20 minutes.I wrote about Terengganu and i did not finish it because it seems that the time limit is very limited.The points are all in my mind but it seems hard to put it in words for a period of 20 minutes.Thinking about the situation,I should have wrote about Kedah instead of Terengganu which i find it more interesting.

Kedah Darul Aman located at the northern region of Malaysia is well known as the rice bowl of Malaysia.The first time i went there i found out that the the feeling of  love to just stay there and not to go back to KL.I went to Kedah by train which takes a longer time about 8 or 9 hours like that,but for those that really love to take their sweet time and in no rush a train is really the best option to travel.

First of all when you reach the place,you will find that the breathtaking scenery of paddy fields.Most of my life i live in a place which you can say a city with less numbers of greenery. Being able to feel the clear air accompanied by the green surrounding is really something precious and new for me.

Another thing about Kedah is that I find that the place is very laid back if compared to KL.There is no rush in doing things and people seems to enjoy their life.I think i prefer to live in a more quiet village than in a hustle city.

A funny thing about my trip to kedah,I did the usual stuff that people do when they go out.I went there as a teenage who are trying to have fun play bowling,watch movies and even take a nap instead of a tourist who wants to know more about the place.No wonder that i did not see much of the culture in Kedah.

I just love people from Kedah,It seems that the place is the gathering of interesting and friendly people.Our 1st and 4th prime minister are from Kedah and they really contribute a lot to Malaysia.
I once fell in love with a girl from Kedah and long story short she is now my very best friend.Most of the Kedah girls that i know are very cute,lovable and very fair(merapu dah).One day i really like to find myself a wife from Kedah and we will stay near a paddy field happily ever after(ke laut2).
Tun Mahathir's Klinik
A Scenery that i captured from the train


Menara Alor Setaq
Masjid Zahir


 p/s:Siapa orang-orang Kedah yang masih mencari pasangan hidup,habaqmai la kat saya ye(enough la man tak payah nak promote2 diri tahu la muka korea)

Please don't read the post script seriously just play-play one la.hehe


Thursday, August 2, 2012

my daddy and marriage

 
This is some of the qualities that really shows my dad:

Keeping quiet is better than nonsense:Daddy,like my mama always said is quiet and tend to keep something to himself rather than telling others.There was once when he achieved a great position,yet all of his relatives do not know about it including me.I only know about his position when i saw some pamphlet about soil convention or something.It seems that i unconsciously follow this quality the most.


Determination:It seems that my daddy loves to work.Sometimes he even go to work on Saturday.I think this is utmost things about my dad's quality.I got a bit of this quality but sometimes i just drift away when i am planning in doing something.

  
Simple and practical:My dad and my mom got married in the US.The reception was so simple.They have their akad nikah and a bit of makan-makan with some friends,and that is it.My parents wedding reception are really different if compared to most of the Malays.Malays wedding tend to have bersanding, hantaran and those sort of stuff.At first i thought that my dad is just lazy to get in those stuff but actually he is truly following the Islamic way in getting married.Most of our society got mix between what should we really do and just plain culture which sometimes contradict with Islam.I have nothing against culture as matter of fact i even learn to play the Kompang during my second year in UPM.Culture shows the identity of a society.

There are much more of my dad in me that even i did not notice.Actually the third point is what i really want to talk about(maybe on the next post).Simple and practical marriage according to Islam.The reason why i am interested in this topic because i am reading a story called Cinta SMS by Aiman Azlan in his blog.

Aiman Azlan:listed as top10 Malaysian v-logger


My dad really shows me how life is and every little things he does have a reason behind it.The funny thing about the above picture is,actually Aiman Azlan do have the same looks as my dad with the beard and spec.coincidence kot.

p/s:do try to visit Aiman Azlan Blog and V-log.

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

a letter to 30 years old self

Hello there my 30 years old self.First of all,I really hope that you are working right now preferably at the Northern region of Malaysia and it will be lovely if you are staying in Kedah right now.You might have moved out of your parents home and decided to move to Kedah in a rental house which soon will be bought by you using your income.Any house near a paddy field will do.


Your Myvi might still be your car that you use to get around.There might be a slight change at the car.You might already put some stickers on it,the one which have many cartoon characters on it(side mirror and bumper)still you love your myvi no matter what.I think you should get another two cars(Suzuki Swift and another one big car)so that all of your family can fit in there.


Marriage.hmm.Maybe if you are lucky and things goes as what you always said in your doa.Miss A might be your lovely wife(berangan,blushing kot).If not any girl you are compatible with will do,don't be so picky.Remember to always implement Islam in life, teach your family to make Islam as their way of life.Love them and always be there for your children.


And if the above does not show how you are.You most likely still a student pursuing postgraduate study in anything related to environment preferably on climate and atmospheric science.If you are in the US good job for you in being able to study abroad and if in Malaysia also good job in being able to further your study.


The most important thing of all,please be a good Muslim.Follow the teaching of Islam no matter what happen to you.InsyaAllah every things going to be alright.

Kedah is the place to be for me

p/s:I got the idea of writing a letter to my future self while watching 'How I met your Mother' season 5 episode 10.HIMYM shows me many interesting and different perspective in life.Thank you Marshall for the idea.

Yours Truly,

21 years old you

2/8/2012 (12.21am)

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Monday Quote

 "You can not escape the responsibility of tomorrow by evading it today"
-Abraham Lincoln
 PS:Saw the quote from a video by a local indie band silent scenery-Tale of a wooden door

Saturday, July 28, 2012

What would you do?

 This are some of the situation that i had gone through in my life:
  1. What would you do?If life seems like a routine that just not going to end
  2. What would you do?If there is nothing to look forward to in the future
  3. What would you do?If you are alone and you feel that life is not worth living
  4. What would you do?If unconsciously you are becoming more and more like your dad (which you really don't what to be like him)
  5. What would you do?If you are hoping something that you certainly sure that it will not happen.
  6. What would you do?If you find it hard to accept fate.
  7. What would  you do?If you feel being anti-social is great and is the best way to live.
  8. What would you do?If you likely to keep all of the things to yourself until you feel there is just nothing to talk about.
  9. What would you do?If you feel like getting into a time machine and undo your mistakes.
  10.  What would you do?If you have so many question in your life.
I do not have the answer but it seems life is a question and there is no right and wrong to it.What matter the most is that how we overcome our problem.Life is very subjective,it is like an essay that you have to think of it first, make an outline,and use the correct term.It seems that problem will just keep on coming if you think of it( i can go on more than 100 if i want to)In my opinion,sometimes it seems better if you just take a problem as a funny experience that you have gone through and have a great laugh of it.

PS:During the fasting month i do a lot of thinking because i can not eat during the day.

Thursday, July 26, 2012

Superman

I always find that being a superhero is very cool and it is like you will not have any problems because if you are a superhero you can use your power to just vanish a problem.But it is different in the song Superman by five for fighting.The song are telling you that even superhero has personal problems.The song is likely telling us that superheros are normal human being also,with problems while saving the day.A part of the lyrics that really interest me the most goes like this:

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I'll never see



Superman do have personal problems.He is hoping something that he himself knows that it would not happen.Still he keep on believing it will happen.It is like you are hoping to spend the rest of your life with a girl which soon are going to be with somebody else.

It may sound absurd, but don't be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed, but won't you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
It's not easy to be me


Superman do find the problem disturbing but still he dreams on that someday it will happen.Even heroes have the right to bleed.Everyone will someday feel unhappy about something.Still there have the right to hope that it will be alright.

Looking for special things inside of me
Inside of me
Inside me
Yeah, inside me
Inside of me


He keep on repeating inside of me,which shows that he keep the problem to himself.I myself tend to keep my problem to myself because i know that we are the only one who can really solve our own problems.There is no wrong in seeking help from somebody else but at the end of the day you are the one who are going to face the problem,Whether you are going to find a solution or just keep on believing it will disappear.






PS:Learn from the past,let go of it(the hardest part) and hope for the best


Wednesday, July 25, 2012

a lover and a friend

During my secondary school days you can say i was not a 'hip' person,so it seems very likely that i fell in love and just kept it to myself (lack of confident kot) which is true in my case.As time goes by,i went to a local university i feel the urge to be with someone,to have someone that you can be with in times of joy and trouble.I met this girl and i really-really like her lets call her miss A.Being in love with miss A is so fascinating that i once wanted miss A to be my future wife.Is not all smooth during my relationship with miss A.To make my story simple,miss A and I are friends right now.


Friends, a word which is for me are very weird if refereed to the opposite sex.The thing is that when you have a girl that is your ex-girlfriend as a friend,the tendency to be in love with her again is very huge.Just being around her does really makes me happy and i love being with her,but the downturn of the situation is that I know that my relationship with miss A are just friend (close friend to be exact) and nothing more than that.


But honestly i really want her to be happy even though she is not with me.I hope the best for her and her future (and may Allah bless her always through out her life).You never know that,may be fate will brings us together back as more than friends.

A song from Tasha Manshahar-Be mine
Dalam Pada i gembira,
Sometimes i feel so sad juga,
cause you dah berpunya,
but i always want you to be mine forever,
please be mine forever..:)


Miss A and I once took a picture with our hands shape like the picture


PS:I am sorry for all of the bad things that i did to you miss A and i am happy for your engagement,i sure things will work out as you like it to be,insyaAllah.

Saturday, July 21, 2012

being courteous on the road

It is the first day of fasting and there is something that just really bothers me(guilt). There i was on the way home from from Kajang and i was at a T junction.Going into the main road i accidentally push my gas a bit and in front of me there is a motorcycle(I am not use to manual car,and still learning to use it).Luckily,I mange to take control of my car and the motorcycle seems to be able to get away from my car.Alhamdullilah, both of us are OK.

What really bothers me is not about the event but what happen after the event.The passenger from the motorcycle look at me with anger (maybe) or she just want me to feel sorry,the weird thing is that she smiles at me,maybe she was mesmerized by my  K-pop idol looks (perasan).I feel guilty for my mistake( i know it is my mistake) but i don't know how to show i am sorry for it,because i was inside of my car (thinking back about the event, i should raise my hand to show that i am sorry).Instead,I just speed past them and the motorcycle blows the hon to show anger or maybe he just want to ask me to buka puasa together kot.

I think we should always be courteous,no matter where we are.Say or in my case show that you are sorry,if you did wrong.It is always good to keep in mind what will we feel if somebody else did something rude to us.
Blue arrow:where my car is heading to.Red arrow:the main road where the motorcycle is heading to
PS:I am really sorry for what happen just now,It is my mistake to the motorcyclist and also the passenger